*What's my purpose now? It's all about changing ME!!

Some amazing things happened to me, and I can totally see the timing in it. It started when my kids started growing up and not needing me so much. I'd always prided myself on teaching my kids to be self-sufficient, so they really didn't need me much. What was I to do now? I didn't have any hobbies or talents because I'd spent 25 years pleasing and helping my husband and kids with their talents and dreams. What were my talents and dreams? What did I even like to do? Without my family, did I even have purpose?

 As I began to search for purpose, or even things I enjoyed doing, I struggled. I didn't know how to do that. And I had so much time on my hands that I started looking for reasons for my lack of talent or reasons I never pursued things that I wanted to do. That resentment came creeping right back in. I started to blame others for my own problems, as if they were the reason I had neglected myself. My relationships began to struggle. With that blaming game, I spent a lot of time focusing on the negative in my family instead of focusing on the positive. And I spent a lot of time trying to fix others when all I really needed to do was fix myself. Become aware of my thoughts so I could choose to change or redirect my thinking or not. Now I have learned that that no one can hurt my feelings but me. Because I am in control of me and my feelings. That's super important to understand.
A happy life starts when you stop blaming the world for your problems, own them, and start making changes in your life--in your mind and heart, and through the amazing power of the atonement. When I begin to change my thinking, or become more aware of my thoughts, it can be a game changer. We can have believable true thoughts that can lead to a happy life, home, marriage, and self. Because what we think reflects what we feel and ultimately do. And that road is what leads to whether we have happiness and peace, and also contentment during the storm. But you have to keep reading about my journey to see how I got there.

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